Is this truly real? Or am I making it up?! 🤣🤣🤣

This is one of those posts which I am going to really struggle to articulate. This is because and only because I am a little scared of being too open.
Well I’ve been in a slightly “funky” mood over the last couple of days. If I am to be honest, a  certain thought occurred to me a couple of days ago, which had nothing to do with relationships at all, but it just plunged me straight into a feeling of depression. I had to shake myself a bit, and remind myself that nothing had tangibly happened, or tangibly changed from literally a moment before when I had been feeling bright and happy.

Eventually I just decided to go to bed, hoping that I would be feeling better in the morning. And you know I was feeling somewhat better the next day…

Well fast forward to today, and that same feeling of “feeling low” has segued into something else completely! And here is the thing, I genuinely don’t know whether I am making this up or whether this is “real”.

I was so worried about being overly open in this post, and yet I have been extremely open so far!
This next bit is the bit that I was a little worried about sharing:  A feeling of emotional closeness and tenderness has descended over me for ahem – a particular person.  This has triggered off my imagination which, to be candid, never really needed much triggering anyway!

So here is my question: is this real? As in, is this actually from God, or is this purely from me, a self-soothing mechanism to soothe the recent feelings of feeling down?

If you are the guy in question (and I can hear Mr Rational asking himself: “How can I possibly know that I am the guy in question when you have not identified him?!”) – are you reading this, and are you feeling this too, this tender sense of emotional connection to me?!
I guess that what I am asking is this: If you and I are feeling a mutual feeling of connection and tenderness towards one another, could this indicate that this is actually from God?!

I would always be wary about basing a relationship on “feelings”, especially “weird” feelings that you deduce from the atmosphere. However, what is encouraging about these feelings is that they resonate completely with who I am as a person.  However, this could be an indication that these feelings originate completely from within me, that it is ultimately loneliness speaking.  On the other hand, if everything else could possibly be right about this possible relationship, then it could be considered that God Himself is pouring out these feelings, to show that He Himself is the one directing us towards a relationship. And God is utterly capable of doing this too!

If God Himself mutually poured out these feelings between us then that would be a kind of validation of all this, and you know what? That is *exactly* the kind of divine validation that I would love for my relationship!  Which is why I am feeling so excited just now!

So if you are the guy in question, and you just randomly fell these feelings fall upon you, and you too are quietly asking yourself just now: “Is this real, or am I making this up?!”…

What would be truly humorous is if the “guy in question” said “Listen Tosin, I know that you are talking about me, but no, I am not feeling anything whatsoever!” Oh well, that’s OK then! 🤣🤣🤣

After writing the above, a third alternative suggested itself to me:  that these feelings came on me as a result of his prayers! It makes me feel a little shy to even suggest this, as it would be suggesting that he could have an active and direct interest in me, and I just don’t want to seem presumptuous….!!!