Frustration!

(Once again, I would like to thank anyone who might have been praying for me. Honestly, I cannot begin to tell you the extent of my gratitude.)

I’ve really been struggling with something big of late. I’ve been praying but I’ve been struggling to engage with God. I’ve been struggling to engage with the Bible. I’ve been a little fed up and frustrated to be honest. And then I finally realised what lies at the root of this particular issue.  I am not going to spell out what it is as doing so would make me a feel a little vulnerable to anyone who might want to use this information against me.

What I do want to say is this:  I suspect that it might be due to someone’s prayers that I finally get it! After weeks, if not months. Do you know what I mean by this: that sometimes when you are not feeling like yourself, or you are feeling “out of sorts” it is literally only a change of perspective that you need? Sometimes, simply understanding what is wrong with you, not even necessarily resolving what is wrong with you, can be enough to fix your mindset. This is something that I have mentioned in a previous post: I know that I have not been focusing on God which can only be dangerous for a Christian.  To be honest, I’ve even been struggling with focusing enough to hear the voice of God. So today, I did something different. I decided to just spend time thinking on God, using my imagination to think on Him, His magnificence, His glory. This requires less concentration power than listening to His voice. If you are also struggling to engage with God, can I recommend this? It is a way of putting God and all His power, His strength, His beauty, His glory, His everything, right back in the centre of your thinking. It helps me remember that whatever else might be going on in my life, there can be no greater focus, no use of time more important than focusing on God, because He is truly the centre around which everything revolves. No, not my faith, but God Himself.