Let’s talk about…love-bombing

I’m SO tired just now!  I’m going to try to get the points of this post down as quickly as possible, then…I’m explaining this at the outset in case this post is a heap of incoherent incoherence.

So yeah, I’ve just been reading a few posts on Buzzfeed. I have a list of about 15 news websites that I peruse every single day, chief of which is the Guardian, followed by the Independent. I am definitely “left-leaning” as an individual.  However the very much not-left-leaning Telegraph is also one of my daily titles, (I just browse over the headlines before being shut out by the paywall.)  Buzzfeed is definitely not one of my daily titles.  In fact I access it only 2 or three times a year – or that is how it feels like, perhaps as many as 10 times a year in practice. However whenever I do go on it, I seem to spend hours reading the relationship articles.

This last post that I read was about love-bombing. And the thought that prompted me to write this post was this: that my behaviour towards Mr “Not The Will of God” could possibly, or rather definitely, be interpreted as love-bombing. This was definitely not my intention. My only intention was to be obedient to my God, and as part of this, I gave a thousand percent.

OK, at this point tiredness wins, can barely keep my eyelids open!

Edit, a few weeks later: well here I am now trying to complete this post, and unfortunately I’ve forgotten everything that I had planned to say.

Looking back on it, I can completely understand, as I could understand then too, if he was wary because of my exaggerated positivity. However, in candour I would have been more than happy to be a little bit more “real”, but this non-relationship taught me that someone in a sense has to give you permission before you can be truly “real” with them, or before you can offer constructive criticism. And he did not give me that permission. And there were also further factors which contributed to the interaction between us which I don’t really want to go into.  At no point was it ever actually a relationship.  What I can sincerely say about myself is that I gave my very best.  And it is that same very best that I would seek to offer in a relationship today, but now armed with more knowledge, wisdom and experience.